Whilst deciding I’m going to become a master at Zumba I’ve also made the decision that I need to get my bum down to the gym if I’m going to work off all these lovely afternoon tea’s I’m so fond of. My gym of choice is ‘Total Fitness’ sadly at the moment my physique would be more accurately described as ‘Total Flabness’……it’s time to turn the flab into fab! – Did I just really say that? –
The thing about healthy eating/fitness is I know EXACTLY what to do to lose weight, eat less and exercise more, simple! The only glaring problem here is that although I can talk the talk, – I could quite easily reel off how many Weightwatchers points are in a curly wurly – 2.5 – if you’re interested, or give you a beginner’s guide to the Atkins diet, meat, mayo, meat, cheese, meat, double cream and you guessed it more meat, I am quite simply brilliant at not losing weight! The problems I have highlighted for my lack of success are…..
1. Declaring I hate the gym/don’t have time for it/the exercise bike hurts my bum/I’m not a not a natural runner, the stepper hurts my legs etc, etc, etc.
2. Loving wine and then loving eating calorific treats once under the influence of said wine.
3. I secretly deep down for a long time haven’t truly believed I can do it.
When reflecting on these reason I realise how pathetic they actually are, especially reason 3. I am addicted to watching programmes like the Biggest Loser, glued to every minute of the amazing journey each successful contestant makes, screeching at the telly ‘OMG 34lbs in a week!’ whilst watching the amazing weight-in sessions, vowing if they can do it I can do it, then I go away and do….well, nothing. I have to question myself as to why this is the case, I HATE having to get my flabby bits out on holiday, resent having to search desperately for ‘flattering’ outfits that will cover my wobbly muffin top and jiggjly bingo wings and have often been reduced to a blubbering mess after trying everything on in my wardrobe and declaring, ‘Nothing fits!’ So why then do I continue to eat the things I shouldn’t, snub exercise and allow the cycle of unhappiness and unhealthiness to continue? The honest truth is……..I really don’t know. But, I’ve come to a point where I realise ‘I don’t know’ isn’t good enough, if I asked anybody why they do a certain thing that makes them unhappy and their response was ‘I don’t know’ I’m not entirely sure I’d buy into it. Surely everything is done for a reason, good or bad? I relaise in need to find my reasons and make sure those reasons mean enough to spur me into action, and make sure those actions evolve into long term changes. It may sound a bit ‘self help guru’ but I need to stop listening to my inner critic, why shouldn’t I be one of the successful ones?